Load of shit

*singing*
I'm a bitch, I'm a bitch
Oh the bitch is back
Stone cold sober as a matter of fact

I knew posting my feelings would cause more trouble than it was worth.

I'm depressed and miserable so take peoples advice to post about why I'm depressed and miserable - this causes a small avalanche of anonymous malicious emails to land in my inbox.

I respect that not everyone feels the same as me, so please don't feel the need to email me asking me not to take it out on you just because you have a different opinion. Different opinions make the world go round.

This is a very big issue for me at the moment, one friend is having nightmares, another is heading for anger meltdown over the crap that's been said about them. Someone else is being completely blanked for no fucking reason.

Me, I just had to clean my whole house several times and either can't sleep properly because of nightmares, or have to wear shit loads of haematite to bed which makes me sleep deep but wake up feeling cut-off from everything.

To top it all off I get to see the ghost of my darling Jamie all over the place as he's worried about me. Last time I saw him this much I was drinking more than a bottle of vodka a day and drawing pretty patterns with blades in my arms.

So. Those who disagree with what I feel. Fine, you're entitled, the matter rests here hopefully.

Those who agree, we'll work through this, I promise.

The person who is responsible for the malicious emails (I know you read this, you use quotes) I have one thing to say: Fuck off and get a life.