Tuesday, August 31, 2004

The Falcon

The Falcon

The Falcon
You are protected by the spirit of the Falcon; he sees qualities
in you that reflect his own such as your true belief in freedom
and beauty above all else. Your spirit soars above the clouds
and feels at one with nature.
Your quote: "Be who you are: not who they think you are"

What is your Inner Spirit Totem Animal?
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Monday, August 30, 2004

Full moon riding high in the sky.

We still haven't got another fuse for the lighting so when I came upstairs by torchlight to check my email I saw the floor of the altar room was silver. The moon is full and floating in the sky at the back of the house.

I love the fact that on the nights the moon is at its fullest I can see it from where I type or can sit in its light in the altar room.

It made me think about the way things have changed in one short moonth (yes, moonth is intentional).

A moonth ago I was very secure. In my friendships and in myself. Now I have constant doubts. Was I really the one who was wrong? Did I misread all the signs? Then I read the emails I have and know that others felt the same and came to me independently to tell me of their worries. I've lost a couple of friends, and made some friendships even stronger. They were changes that would have happened in the end anyway I think, but events just happened faster than I ever thought they could.

There's a big thread on the Grove about The Dark Night of the Soul. Very apt for me with everything that's been going on. Things are darker at the moment than they have been for a long time. Six different nightmares last night, all new stories, none I've ever had before or had similar to before. All of which were detailed in the anonymous emails that arrived in my inbox this morning. I know when they're going to be there and after the dream I had about Emily I don't read them if they're there before bedtime.

The emails are sent to me in the form of ecards, sent using my Yahoo address that I never have used. That is, using it as the from address. I knew one day that being so open about myself online would cause problems, I didn't expect nightmares being sent that smash my shields and work past my haematite. So it's sleeping pills (herbal) for me tonight, I'll wake up dopy but better than I did this morning.

Jamie is behind me in the reflection of the window, guarding my back. He's never there as I go to sleep, he respects Phoenix too much for that but I think I'll sort this with both of them by my side.

Past love, present love, future love. Watching my back, guarding my heart.

Weird Weather

The weather seems to be acting up all over the place at the moment.

Recently it's been quite grey and rainy here, which is pretty unusual for August. I think it's been the wettest August ever recorded, while July had the highest temps recorded.

There's another hurricane heading for Florida too, I hope it calms down before it gets there or better still it swings away. There's quite a discussion on the Grove about it. As it's heading straight for *kass's son she understandably wants it to move away, but Wolf wants it over in Texas because "The weather patterns have been screwed up for the last twelve years". Well to me that's just the weather changing over time and being different as the worlds climate changes. Not the weather being screwed up.

I hope that Texas gets some rain (in accordance with the current weather patterns) and that *kass's boy is safe whatever happens.

The weather here is sunny again, after the 20 minute downpour from a clear sky we had this morning, then the sun came out and I swear the kitchen roof (which I can see from the library room window) was dry in 5 minutes.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

You are a Revolutionary Woman!

You are a Revolutionary Woman!
You could care less about the monarchy!
You live for yourself!

You're beautiful and kick-ass! And like a female-warrior. You're resourceful, smart, tough, street-smart. You live life for yourself and not as others dictate and refuse to be branded into a category. You live apart from world and society.

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

Friday, August 27, 2004

Carnt Be Trusted - The Bluetones

This song is popping into my head quite a bit at the moment, think it's the first line that does it.

Who is she to say you carn't be trusted?
And come to think of it how does she know?
Her doubt is just her faith in disappointment
She can't be blamed if she decides to go.

Her dignity is what makes her an angel
You know she needs it more than she needs you
It doesn't pay to take these things for granted
Something which you always seem to do
You always seem to do

But she just wants to spend some time with you
Just a minute, or just a moment
Just long enough to throw one clean punch.

Now you've reached the point where she sees through you
Your low-esteem and lack of self-control.
Everything she had she handed to you
And what she didn't give you, you stole.

Sometimes I stop to question it all
Must I look at the stars and live in the dirt?
When all I have to show for my doubt is a blow to the lip
and some blood on my shirt.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

He he he he he


CARRY ON/QUESTIONS by Stephen Stills

One morning I woke up and I knew
You were really gone
A new day, a new way, I knew
I should see it along
Go your way, I'll go mine and
Carry on

The sky is clearing and the night
Has gone out
The sun, he come, the world
is all full of light
Rejoice, rejoice, we have no choice but
To carry on

The fortunes of fables are able
To sing the song
Now witness the quickness with which
We get along
To sing the blues you've got to live the tunes and
Carry on

Carry on
Love is coming
Love is coming to us all

Where are you going now my love?
Where will you be tomorrow?
Will you bring me happiness?
Will you bring me sorrow?
Oh, the questions of a thousand dreams
What you do and what you see
Lover can you talk to me?

Girl when I was on my own
Chasing you down
What was it made you run?
Trying your best just to get around.
The questions of a thousand dreams
What you do and what you see
Lover can you talk to me?

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

My sister and her funky festival wellies. Posted by Hello

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Load of shit

I'm a bitch, I'm a bitch
Oh the bitch is back
Stone cold sober as a matter of fact

I knew posting my feelings would cause more trouble than it was worth.

I'm depressed and miserable so take peoples advice to post about why I'm depressed and miserable - this causes a small avalanche of anonymous malicious emails to land in my inbox.

I respect that not everyone feels the same as me, so please don't feel the need to email me asking me not to take it out on you just because you have a different opinion. Different opinions make the world go round.

This is a very big issue for me at the moment, one friend is having nightmares, another is heading for anger meltdown over the crap that's been said about them. Someone else is being completely blanked for no fucking reason.

Me, I just had to clean my whole house several times and either can't sleep properly because of nightmares, or have to wear shit loads of haematite to bed which makes me sleep deep but wake up feeling cut-off from everything.

To top it all off I get to see the ghost of my darling Jamie all over the place as he's worried about me. Last time I saw him this much I was drinking more than a bottle of vodka a day and drawing pretty patterns with blades in my arms.

So. Those who disagree with what I feel. Fine, you're entitled, the matter rests here hopefully.

Those who agree, we'll work through this, I promise.

The person who is responsible for the malicious emails (I know you read this, you use quotes) I have one thing to say: Fuck off and get a life.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Iris, by The Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


...I have been crying lots.

I had work today so when I got there I told Bod I would probably be very quiet and a bit moody and explained why. She was so lovely I teared right up again, then when I got upstairs Matt looked at me, said "Have you got a cold?" then when I shook my head he came straight over and hugged me. Katie was the same, so so kind.

Matt was working upstairs in the morning but I had to promise to call him if a customer gave me hassle and then he'd "come and sort them out". Katie made me stay away from the till so while I tidied sections ruthlessly she served all the customers and came to give me hugs and back rubs in quiet moments.

Then I thought sod the diet and had KFC for lunch, this was under orders from the kids. Then I worked with Matt for the afternoon. He asked me to slow down and give myself a rest but when I said I couldn't he was really sympathetic.

Jamie and Jason picked me up from work, Jamie loved her pink car cushion.

Gotta go and finish Jen's birthday pressie now, plus phone my folks. Just spoke to Emily on messenger and my Aunt Sylv is visiting, but Emily says to call anyway.

She got into the uni she wanted by the way. She'll be going next year, after spending a year in Canada.

Feeling mortal.

I was thinking this morning that it might be a good idea to take off the post preceeding this one. People will have enough going on after WM Mike died this morning to have to deal with all that stuff as well.

But then I thought about what had happened, and the fact that if something happened to me today the stuff would never get said and I would somehow not be being truthful with the universe.

So it stays, and I just hope that I don't regret it.

Love you guys.

Saturday, August 21, 2004


This post has been brewing for a while and I've kept it inside until I just couldn't manage it any more. I've had a couple of people tell me that I need to write this down, not just for me but for them as well. So we shall see.

There's been a big thread on the Grove this week about what to do if someone is psychically attacking you, or if someone sends you bad energy because they think you're attacking them. Lots of interesting stuff has come out of this.

The week Georgia was here a few of us on the trip had a really big shock. We were getting bad vibes and so confided in someone that we all trusted. We expected her to help us somehow, not necessarily to agree with us, but not to dismiss it out of hand which is what at least 4 of the six of us feel that she did.

It started on the Monday when Phoenix and I were talking to Georgia and another visitor arrived. They walked straight past Phoenix to make much of Georgia, which is fair enough as she was the reason they were there. But to completely ignore the person who is letting you stay in their home? And to only say a thank you of sorts a week later? To me that sucks.

So we sat and chatted and I didn't feel comfortable, so went and got my assorted Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young CD's to put on as they always mellow me out. So I tried to relax and mostly succeeded. But for most of the afternoon I just felt like I was in the way, like I was the interloper in their space, instead of them being a guest in my house. Mab came round later and I relaxed then as I mostly felt comfortable. But as soon as Mab went, I felt horrible again. I felt pushed out of MY house. So we made excuses and went up to bed. Didn't get a whole lot of sleep though...Sound really carries in our house and I would have needed earplugs and a bottle of vodka to sleep through that.

The next day was mostly the same, feeling pushed out of my house and unwelcome. Then they went out for a while with Georgia and the house went back to normal after about 30 minutes. So I wandered round with incense and then had a lovely hot bath. I had just come out to talk to Phoenix when I heard them at the front door...And ran back into the bathroom so that I didn't have to feel that shit again.

We went to the moot that evening and I felt weird the whole time. The moot was great though because I wasn't the only one there who felt that way. One person said to me that they really didn't like the way this person kept leering at everyone, and their partner was saying to Phoenix that they really didn't like being in the same room.

We went home fairly late after the moot, but once again we got no sleep. At one point it had been quiet for a while so I thought I'd nip downstairs to the toilet and then try to sleep. On my way back from the toilet I suddenly felt really uncomfortable and ran across the living room to the stairs and pulled the stair door shut behind me. I'd only gone a few steps up when I heard the door to the living room from the hall (and Georgia's room) open. It felt like someone had been there waiting for me to go upstairs again. Got back into bed and cuddled up to Phoenix and we were just starting to drift off when it got all noisy again.

I'd really been looking forward to the camping but Wednesday morning I was so pissed off and tired! When the others got to the house the whole place seemed to brighten right up. On the drive up to the camping I told a friend about it and they were so sympathetic I nearly cried all over them. As the weather brightened my mood lifted. Got pissed off again at the services when they said they were stopping to eat, then we saw them leaving the car park about 5 minutes later - more of the whole "get out of my space, away from my things" energy there.

Setting up the camp was great and then we wandered into town and went to the pub. After a while they joined us and the mood seemed to really drop. Jennie ended up talking to them for a bit, and then we all went off for fish and chips. While we were eating Jennie said that she'd felt really uncomfortable in the pub, and then said it was because she felt that this person was leering right at her, not talking to her face but talking to her chest, and making soo many innuendos.

We did all have a chat about this while sitting on the market cross and decided that the things that were getting to all of us were the ways that this person would made a lewd comment, but then repeat it three or four times straight away. That they didn't seem to get that it was impolite to stare at someone's breasts. That as soon as they turned up they immediately had to know exactly what everyone else was doing.

That evening at the camp was ok, we were all a bit quiet really. I was just so exhausted. I slept straight through that night, the first time I have EVER done that on my first night in a strange place, especially in a tent!

The next morning we went for breakfast at the Blue Note, but had only been there a little while before they turned up. They said they'd gone to the campsite but when no-one was there, had left something in Georgias tent and then come looking for us. Now this was another thing I didn't like, going into someone's tent when they aren't there. Fine if they know you will be there and you have asked, but it seemed very rude. We sat outside the Blue Note and were relaxing quite well until the innuendos started. The same comment several times in quick succession - each time aimed at a different female present, each time not looking at their faces. Jennie then got up and said she needed fresh air...I practically ran after her!

We then went on a nice shopping wander throughout Glastonbury. Went to their shop but were ignored completely in favour of Mab and Georgia. Didn't mind being ignored, better than being leered over! After the shopping we went back to the campsite in dribs and drabs. Ended up being the six of us again and we were all just sitting about chilling out when I got grabbed from behind. They'd come down to the campsite to see where everyone was, but instead of walking straight down (as at least 3 people were sitting so they could see the way people would walk to our tents), they crept along the hedgerow so that they could "surprise" us. If I hadn't been so relaxed when they did it, they would have got a broken nose at least, and as it was Phoenix nearly went for them. When they'd asked for a detailed itinerary of what we were doing that evening (answered with lots of dunnos and maybes) they went away, but the peaceful time had gone.

We went into town to go to the Wells and only just made it. We did all get in in time (just). The person had said that they definitely weren't coming into the wells as they had things to do, but all of a sudden there they were. I ended up moving through the terraces faster than I wanted to. I would get to a place and just be feeling still when they came round the corner. Eventually we all went up into the top meadow and weren't followed. We had such a nice time up there. I just lay back and looked at the sky with Phoenix. Jamie was blowing bubbles and the view of tree and blue blue sky and bubbles was heavenly.

After a while we got curious as to where Georgia had got to. Then Andy C looked through his telescope and she was climbing the Tor already. Apparently they had thought that we'd all gone on ahead without them (which we wouldn't have done without saying where we were going). So we all went up the Tor and sat at the top. Jamie, Jennie, Juell, me, Phoenix and Andy C all sat against the tower and drank some mead and cider. The others were sitting on the edge of the slope. We watched the sunset and chilled out quite a lot. On the way down Juell was saying what she thought rather loudly!

At the bottom things started to go pear-shaped. We'd been invited to the local moot and decided we were going to go along now. They kept telling us there was no point and that no-one would still be there and then set off with Georgia to go to the moot. The person who went with them felt very pushed aside and they kept saying that "you should just go back to the others". We caught up with them at the pub at last. The moot that "will have finished" was still going on, but when Jennie went up she was frozen out. I then went with her but got the same reaction.

Phoenix had been asking for advice on the walk back from the Tor, and was very surprised when he basically got told he was imagining things. He tried to say that others were uncomfortable too, but this was also dismissed. The worst bit for me was when I tried to explain how I felt and was told "they're in a relationship". Fine, no problem, but all the bullshitting and advoidance? The leering? ...Never got an answer to that. The person I'd asked for advice seemed to be settled with the idea that I was being jealous and didn't like sharing my time with Georgia with anyone.

Things got worse at the campsite. We'd left the pub early and then Mab, Aud, and Ian joined us later. We all assumed that Georgia was still with the person, so when Jamie and I went to the loo and saw her there we got a bit freaked.

Very freaked in fact, it was like something out of a bad horror film. You think you see someone walking, but aren't sure. The you see them at the sinks and talk to them. They're right behind you as you leave the block, but when you get back to the tents (the only place they could really go) they've gone. You tell the person who saw them last and they say "you're imagining it". The they deny she's about. Then they say "Oh, she's drunk".

Now if I was in a strange country and walking about drunk in the pitch black, I'd like people to be concerned. But this person wasn't. So we all went to look for Georgia and I admit that I was very upset and very stressed. I'd had very little sleep because of a person, and now the person I really trusted was telling me I was imagining everything.

We found Georgia but before I could speak to her I was waved away, dismissed. I went back to the tents in a blinding rage, grounded myself and then burst into tears.

The next morning I was asked "what the situation is" because things were so tense. I was told that Georgia had walked away from me the night before because she was mad at me. We all tried to say what we felt and were basically told that we'd been drunk and imagining it. I had to walk away here...Couldn't keep my temper.

When I calmed down I had a talk with Georgia. She said she hadn't been drunk, or mad she just needed to release some energy as she was really buzzing. Fine, but why hadn't this just been said the night before? No hassle then, just peace instead of war. I tried to explain exactly what it was that made me uncomfortable to Georgia and she said that it was just this persons way, she had no trouble with it. I said fine. I couldn't work out how to verbalize the fact that this person made us all feel sleazy all the time.

When we got home I cleaned the house, I cleansed the house, I made the house feel like mine again and shut out all the residual energy that was left from them.

Two weeks later one person is only just starting to post again. Two others read a bit but don't want to be in there at the moment. I am there because I have as much right to be there as anyone.

But they posted in the energy blocking thread and wound me right up. They posted that all they send is love and light, and that they hope certain people are reading and learning. Now I NEVER said that this person was attacking me, as far as I can tell they are only sending love. But their love energy feels dirty, sleazy, leery, lechy to me. So please stop sending me love. Actually, you can carry on as it all gets filtered clean and then used for useful things. Hey I'm not going to turn down free energy now!

Well it only took an HOUR to write that lot! I feel soo much better, cleansed right out. I still need to talk to the person who dismissed me, I don't think they have any idea how much this has upset people!

(BTW, I know that most of you will be able to fill in the blanks on names, but I'm happier to leave them as official blanks, the people concerned should know who they are.)

Now I need to go work on a spell to get rid of nightmares for someone who went on that trip. She had her psychic side really battered by this person, possibly unintentional I don't know - I just know she didn't ask for any of the energy that they gave her, and that's damn rude.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

I am so damn proud!

I've just sent out text messages to the weekend kids from work to find out how they did in their A Level exams.

Kate J got AABC and will be going to Southampton.

Katie W got AAB and will be going to Newcastle.

Matt got BCE and will be going to Bournemouth.

I'm so proud of them for all the work they did and the fact that they've all got in to their first choice universities, but I'm really sad that they're going to be leaving us!

Kate J always keeps me smiling, Katie W makes me CDs to keep me happy...and Matt always looks cute and so makes my surroundings much better to look at! LOL.

Still waiting to find out how Phoenix's brother Matt has done this time, will add that to this post when I find out!

In other news, my sister (who did the IB so got her marks about a month ago) has found out why she hasn't heard back from Glamorgan yet....UCAS hadn't sent her results through!!!!

So a little fireball of get-your-butt-moving energy to UCAS would be most appreciated.

I liked this so much I had to put it in here too...

I got this from my cousin Richad the other week and loved it! I then forwarded it to lots of people and forgot about it.

Morganna has just replied to the forward and left it attached at the end and made me smile all over again.

So here it is:

Are you tired of all those sissy, mushy "friendship" poems that always sound
good but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of
promises that really speaks to true friendship!

1. When you are sad, ...I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge
against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue, ...I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile, ...I'll know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared, ...I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried, .....I will tell you horrible stories about how
much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused, ...I will use little words to explain.

7. When you are sick, ....stay away from me until you're well again. I
don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall, ...I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

Send this to ten of your closest friends and get depressed because you can
only think of two, and one of them is not speaking to you right now anyway.

Remember: A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you
move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.

*eye roll*

I went to bed relatively early last night as part of my new more organised lifestyle *snort*

Then this morning I see that the Grove is full of pond slime and smutty Froggie jokes...I knew I shouldn't have left them alone!

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Today I have been mostly...

...spending my inheritance (which I haven't actually received yet, but that's a minor hitch).

I've been frolicking on Ikea.UK for most of the day. Their new catalogue is online already and although most bits are supposed to be downloadable to save in about 15 mins, they took quite a lot longer on this computer. Must get broadband...

Still I've got them all nicely saved now so that I can go through them with a pen and paper and decide what desk, sofa, bed, shelving, storage boxes, kitchen stuff we need. I might even let Phoenix have a hand in picking things!

I've also been looking at several very posh shopping sites that I got from The Shops by India Knight. Laura bought this the other day but I just copied down all the sites I liked the look of while I was bored upstairs at work one day.

They ain't cheap...but the stuff is lovely and I'm looking for cheaper copies!
Cabbages and Roses
Cath Kidston
Celtic Sheepskin Co. I'm so craving one of their beanbags...
WARNING! Rococo Chocolates
Traditional Wooden Toys (now I just need a small child as an excuse...
Nick and Nora
Puppy-Bedstock I need one of those red bondage cushions...
Melin Tregwynt So I'm never chilly again!

I'm also being practical...to an extent!
I need new t-shirts for work so I'll probably pick up a couple from Rosie Nieper, I know I'm going to buy one of the velcro ones, then I can change it to match my mood!

I also moved the altar and all the pictures into the end room today. I'm planning to pick up a few element items to put in the corners of the room. I wanted to put them in the corresponding corners but the door is in the North so will not be suitable for a plant :( Maybe I should just pick up some element candles from here...

Thursday, August 12, 2004


...can be found in my OTHER blog.

A titbit of Pratchett

Obtained from Book Data at work.

Going Postal

Moist von Lipwig was a con artist and a fraud and a man faced with a life choice: be hanged, or put Ankh-Morpork's ailing postal service back on its feet.
It was a tough decision.
But he's got to see that the mail gets through, come rain, hail, sleet, dogs, the Post Office Workers Friendly and Benevolent Society, the evil chairman of the Grand Trunk Semaphore Company, and a midnight killer.
Getting a date with Adora Bell Dearheart would be nice too.
Maybe it'll take a criminal to succeed where honest men have failed, or maybe it's a death sentence either way.
Or perhaps there's a shot at redemption in the mad world of the mail, waiting for a man who's prepared to push the envelope...

Published 1st October 2004.

The DiscWorld Almanac for the Common Year 2005

In this latest accessory to the DiscWorld phenomenon, Terry Pratchett joins forces with Bernard Pearson to produce the definitive Almanac to the Common Year, 2005 being the Year of the Incipient Goat, for the city of Ankh-Morpork and Surrounding Areas & Benefices.
Here you will find an essential guide to all aspects of life, and a sure means of ensuring fertility of crops & livestock, also a boon companion in affairs of the HEART & HEALTH, with notes on Husbandry, Physic, Fairs & Marts, and other such information as will render this Publication a staunch companion to Townsman & Tiller of Soil alike. Including homemade remedies for common ailments, receipes, horoscopes, scientific discoveries, a calendar, strange tales and much much more...
With witty illustrations from Paul Kidby, this is an artistically presented package guaranteed to tickle the funny bone of all Pratchett fans.

Published 1st October 2004.

Roll on October!

Although The Art of the DiscWorld (HB, £14.99) is going to be published on 2nd September...

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Weird Television

I've been watching very random television this week. Mainly it's cos there's nothing on I've been planning to watch so when I go down to cross-stitch I end up watching half a film or lots of Kerrang! music.

Tonight I solved a few tv watching problems when I discovered Noggin. Not Noggin the Nog alas, but other very good tv shows. Tonight I watched Paddington Bear (2 episodes), The Wombles (2 episodes), Portland Bill, The Clangers and Mr Benn. Then I went through and bookmarked them for tomorrow too.

I also discovered various bits of Olympics to bookmark for next week, although I still get pissed off at the fact that they show endless heats of the swimming and only show edited snippets of the show jumping and cross-country (plus about 30 seconds of dressage). More Equestrianism on tv please!

I then bookmarked the wrestling for Sunday, as Bizkitt is coming round to watch Summerslam with Phoenix. I have work so probably will be snoozing away upstairs while they get all manly downstairs. As long as they're reasonably quiet...

I saw about 15 minutes of Broken Arrow before Phoenix came down so I could come online. It looked ok, I may attempt to finish watching it sometime.

I keep trying to press buttons on the screen.....that's a real side-effect from the new touch screen tills at work. They're pretty good except that they're all slightly too low, not a problem now but after a 2 hour stint at christmas it could be a killer. But hopefully I'll have sorted my back out by then.

I was healthy today and had a salad for lunch. *listens to people fainting* ok, so it was a McDonalds salad! There was an advert about the fact that if you buy a salad happy meal you get a pedometer (step measury thingy) with it. So I went in and asked for it only to be told they'd run out. The girl suggested I go back tomorrow so I will, but I won't have another salad. The green stuff was mostly ok but a couple of bits were really bitter so i devoured the crispy chicken bits (which were lovely) and then ate.....a Toffee Crisp McFlurry. Hey, can't be healthy ALL the time right?

I keep looking round this room and working out where I want to move things to. I'll do some rearranging on Sunday maybe.

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Very busy week...

Well Georgia Belle has been and gone, she's on her plane home right now. It was so fabulous to meet her, this week will be remembered for lots of fun stuff and frolics, rather than the slime that is so close to the top right now.

I bonded so much with the other Glastonbury Campers this week as well. I learnt a lot of stuff about myself and other people. I did tarot readings for Jennie and Juell that they liked lots and that made sense for them, and I did one for the camping trip that I shouldn't have dismissed.

One of the things I learnt was to trust my own intuition. It's strange you know, various people have been telling me this for ages but when it came down to it they were the ones telling me I was wrong. Well, they have their opinions and I have mine and I know we can still get along even though we differ on this. The issue will hopefully never come up again.

I've been cleaning since Mab and Aud left after we dropped Georgia at the airport. I've cleansed all round the house to get rid of the slimy energy I've felt for most of the week, I've washed lots of things and sorted stuff for disposal too. I've been quite productive considering how tired I am! I just keep remembering how perfect the time in the meadow at Chalice Wells was, with the blue sky overhead and Jamie blowing bubbles.

Now Phoenix wants the computer so I shall work out how we're going to organise the ritual room for ourselves (and the WWWG) and I'll probably do some sewing too. I might just make a start on the apparently "horrible" Southern Belle pattern that I bought on eBay, although I've got some protection and confidence charms that I want to work on for a friend who got hit hard by stuff this week.

*grabs up Chalice Well water and smudge sticks and goes to fight last drops of slime*