Thursday, September 30, 2004

Foley and Esme Posted by Hello
Snoozing Posted by Hello
Snozzing Kitties Posted by Hello

Fed up

Fed up with the Grove at the moment.

I stayed on there after the Glastonbury thing because there are people on there that I adore. I put up with emails from Mods telling me not to be negative onlist (when I wasn't) and then having my replies to them ignored. I put up with getting nasty emails from people who are members of the Grove, because even if I'd complained no-one would have done fuck-all.

The list is all scratchy and wrong at the moment. I'm the only one left of the group from Glastonbury, the others have all stopped reading or been pushed off...I'm just too bloody minded to let them do this to me.

So I shall stay and read the bits that interest me, the time when I would read all messages is now gone. I just feel that at the moment I'm not getting the support I need from the place....this whole "tough love" thing is just annoying me too much. Tough love should be an offlist thing, and veiled remarks about "past negativity" should be responded too with the emails I got asking me to keep that stuff off-Grove - as I did.

There's only so many times I can be told that I should have avoided the person that was pissing me off - when I did avoid them and that's what started the problem.

That I should just block them, well to be honest I knew bugger-all about blocking energy before then, and when I tried to block at first I got more swamped by the energy that was being sent. So my blocking skills have improved 500% and I' just glad my Jamie could help me block the nightmares.

Now I don't have kids to go play with and receive love from, but I have my kittens and my Phoenix. So I shall go play, and forget them and their sideways snide remarks.

Todays Horoscope

A group with which you're affiliated, KATE, might be all inflamed by supposed events and issues that could well prove to be nothing more than rumor or gossip. If a discussion about it seems to be turning into an old-fashioned brouhaha, don't be afraid to stand up and suggest that someone be assigned to check out the facts. All is not as it seems, and it's useless getting all excited over nothing.


Well I know something happened on the Grove last night, now it's off to find out what and to see if I really care....

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Cute balls of fluff have taken over my life.

We got our kittens yesterday!

The lady arrived with a cardboard box containing 5 kittens and we were invited to take our pick. She tried to check what sex they all were and they seemed to all be male so we had five to choose from. At first I liked this almost all black one but it was very very shy and scared and not interacting with any of the other kittens. So we picked one that looks like he has a goatee and another one that kept winking at me.

The lady left and we watched the little things play. First of all they didn't realise the other one was still there, but then they started playing together, fighting the sheet that hangs over the futon and killing vicious bits of cotton too.

Jamie came round just as we manage to get them to eat and she was laughing at them pushing each other around to get at the food.

We had decided to call them Foley and The Luggage (one wrestling name, one DiscWorld name) and Foley is the kitten with the goatee, absolutely bonkers. Chasing his tail in the middle of the floor and doing somersaults when he turns round too fast. The other kitten is quieter and I started to think that The Luggage wasn't going to be a suitable name. After Jamie left they both fell asleep and it was then that we checked and saw the other kitten was a girl.

So I was thinking of female DiscWorld names, like Angua and Tiffany. I quite liked Tiffany as the kitten changes from frantic motion to sitting and thinking, but my sister said it was an Essex name so we've decided on Esmerelda, Esme for short.

Foley has a white face with a black goatee, slightly more white on his shoulders and black front legs. Esme has a white face and white front legs. They both have black patches on their back knees and white tummies.

Last night we decided to sleep downstairs with them and we got into bed after they'd settled into their baskets. But Esme decided she wanted to sleep with us and she came and curled up next to my pillow.

This morning they've had breakfast, used the litter tray, fought the fridge monster, fought each other and Esme washed Phoenix's hand too.

Now I need to go play with my kitties again! (You'll get some photos when we manage to take some!)

Tuesday, September 21, 2004


I like champagne....

I've finally opened the bottle that Cabochon gave us as a housewarming present 6 months ago! In my defence it was only a half bottle and Phoenix doesn't like champagne so I was saving it for a night that I wanted it. Tonight I realised that it's two years today that Phoenix and I moved in together so figured that was a good reason. LOL

Earlier I had my feet soaking in hot water whiile I read a new book, drank champagne and ate hot ciabatta bread spread with butter.....yum!

I like champagne....

Sunday, September 19, 2004

One of those weekends!

This weekend has been hectic but good.

Yesterday I was working upstairs all day and got to hang out with Jen and Kate J. All was going well until Kate J realised that her brain had melted at some point and she'd been doing customer orders wrong all day.

When they collect their books you're supposed to refund the pre-payment and sell the book. She'd been refunding the book and putting the pre-payment through again. After a few minutes of panic I managed to solve it by just doing the refund pre-payment, sell book thing twice; once to cancel out the mistake, and once to make the tills and stock levels right.

The poor girlie felt really terrible so I might have to pick her up a pink & fluffy present's her last day on Saturday before she heads off to uni :(

After the excitements of the day the evening was real quiet, apart from the phoning about trying to find kittens thing! We had a home visit from the Cat Protection League people in the afternoon and they're happy for us to have kittens through them. They phoned later and gave a number for a lady who has 5 six week old kittens that need homes. Couldn't get through last night and when I got through this morning she's on holiday for another week. But I was the first to phone so we should hopefully get two cute black and white balls of fluff soon.

Then today I felt odd. I was wishing we could have gone to Glastonbury with the others but I'm aware that I would have been exhausted. So instead I did some shredding of very old paperwork and cleared out some drawers.

We popped into town this afternoon too. Very unusual for me to want to go out and walk when I don't need to, but I wanted to for the first time in ages.

We went into work to check on Kate J and to say goodbye to sweet Matt who is off to uni in the next couple of days so things will be quiet without him. He was moving half the shop around again and doing a fantastic job.

Then we went to the pound shop and I bought some incense and candles. Wanted to drool over the stationery in WHSmith but Phoenix dragged me off to Tesco for fruit instead.

Then tonight we've watched Carnivale and I popped on to sort out my pay and distribute it between all the companies wanting money from us. There's quite a respectable amount left, but that's because Phoenix will be paying the rent from his wages which is a good job or we'd be on -£100!!!

I shall close tonight with the words to a song that have been drifting through my mind all day, although I'm sure I haven't seen the video or heard the song in any shops. Must be that someone I know has been listening to it lots and it's carried through....


She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

And She will be loved
And She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

She will be loved (repeated)

Please don't try so hard to say good bye.


I love that "Tap on my window, knock on my door, I want to make you feel beautiful." part, makes my soul shine.

G'night sweet people! xxx

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Fabulous Calendar!

We had the new calendars in at work today and I was putting stock out in kids while Sarah C unpacked them.

She came over and said "I'm sorry for showing you this now when we don't get paid until Monday, but it's just perfect for you and I wanted you to see it before they all got pinched."

Ecological Wall Calendar 2005

She's's perfect!

It has four sheets that each cover the period from solstice to equinox. ie the winter one goes from Yule through to Ostara. The sheets have the dates along the bottom and beautiful pictures all the way along them. They show tide heights and periods, the moon cycle, what nature is doing at each point in the year and what stars you can see in the sky.

The back of each sheet then has a more detailed look at what's on the main page, but they're not on the back of themselves if you know what I mean! The detailed stuff for the winter one is on the back of the summer sheet and vice versa, the smae for spring and autumn. This way you can have the main side and the detailed side showing at the same time!

I'm buying this on Monday and will probably be putting it up above my desk (when I get one) so that I can look at it lots. I'll still have my DiscWorld one downstairs though, as the Eco one doesn't have spaces for writing in really, there's enough room to note a birthday maybe, but that's it.

I can't wait to buy it on Monday and bring it home to my house!!!!

BTW, for those Wulfrun people reading this, we only have 5 in stock so I don't know how long they'll last but I can reserve them for you!

Ta me air meisce

Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

Ta me air meisce
Ta me air meisce - 'I am drunk.'You enjoy a drink - or five - now and then. You can usually be found in a pub - it doesn't matter which one, because they all look the same after a few drinks - or hugging the porcelain.

Gosh, THAT was a surprise!

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Been looking at frocks today...

...and my sister told me she adores this one

It's by Romantica of Devon. Emily also likes the one they have on that front page shot, but the neckline is a bit too square for me and the bodice a bit too fussy.

Confetti has it priced at £500-£750 which is more than I intended on spending, but I'm going to add it to my Inheritance list and buy fewer books.

She's also decided that she'll buy herself one and dye it pink.....

Lazy day off...

...well not really!

I've cleaned the bathroom today. Haven't finished yet as I'm waiting for the floor to dry before I can go back in and put the rug back down etc. It's the current FlyLady zone you see, and I thought I might as well see how long it would take. I gave myself 15 minutes and had done most of it in that time, so I added another 15 which was plenty of time in which to clean the bath and sweep the floor (dustpan and brush as I figured that doing it that way would make me more aware of how dirty it had been, plus the vac was upstairs!).

I've also been tatting about on Amazon while I ate my lunch and came across a few nice surprises.

DiscWorld Almanak

Darwin's Watch: Science of DiscWorld III

DiscWorld Calendar

Going Postal

I knew about Going Postal and the Almanac, and was expecting the calendar, but Darwin's Watch is a very pleasant surprise...I just have to be patient until May 5th 2005 now!

Sunday, September 12, 2004

What brand are you?

What Brand Are you?

A new name and £100 million saved!


Your brand will be unique because this denotes:

the customer is always writing

Saturday, September 11, 2004

All I can say is wow. Posted by Hello

Been thinking about the date today...

...and listening to the Crosby & Nash CDs my dad did for me. This one keeps making me cry.

Half Your Angels - Crosby & Nash

Somewhere in heaven
Wings are taking flight
Flying over a worldly weight of hatred
Hanging over a building in the rain

You got to heaven
Blown across the sky
Crying out for the angels to help you
To rise up out of the ashes and the flames

Send me half your angels
We're running out of time
Send me half your angels
I'll send you half of mine
Hope they get there in time

And far below your heaven
Hearts are wondering why
Why would anyone hurt gods children?
How could anyone harm them at all?

Send me half your angels
We're running out of time
Send me half your angels
I'll send you half of mine
Hope they get there in time

And while you're in heaven
Sleeping on the wind
Ask your heart to forgive this evil
Ask your soul to forgive us all

Send me half your angels
We're running out of time
Send me half your angels
I'll send you half of mine
Hope they get there in time

Send me half your angels
We're running out of time
Send me half your angels
I'll send you half of mine
Hope they got there in time

Half your angels

Sunday, September 05, 2004


Milky Way Tonight - Crosby & Nash

I can really see the Milky Way tonight
from the furthest edge of memory out of sight

will the sky begin to fall?
no-one knows at all
no-one knows

I can almost hear the echoes of the past
from the voices of the years gone by so fast
I'm using all my might to try and find the light
in the Milky Way tonight

it seems our hopes and dreams were a million miles away
the worlds not what it seems
and it's changing every, changing every day

it seems our hopes and dreams are a million miles away
the worlds not what it seems
and it's changing every, changing every day

I could swear I heard a whisper on the wind
telling me again what might have been
in the fading firelight
I can see your face so bright

in the Milky Way tonight
in the Milky Way tonight

I can almost see the Milky Way tonight


Michael(Hedges Here) - Crosby & Nash

I saw you there like a fire in the sky
and all I knew of you was gone
except your music that I know will never die
going on and on, going on and on

In my life you were such a shining star
burning bright for all to hear
and in the distance is the sound of your guitar
playing loud and clear, playing loud and clear

Michael, flame on.
Michael, bright eyes.
Michael, shine through.
Michael, goodbye.

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Essex Girl

Home is ok. Had a small disagreement with my mother in a restaurant last night but sorted it today. She wound me up and I'd had a couple of drinks so I basically told her that sometimes she's a real bitch.

I saw Pami today!!!! We chatted about her honeymoon and her recent trip to Glastonbury (she went in Froggie's shop and thought it was nice, but claustrophobic as there were five of them in there). I told her about the Carnival and said it would be great if she could come with us and she showed me the date in her diary where a few months back she'd writtten in a date to meet up with me, 13th November, Carnival Saturday!

I'm at Phoenix's parents tonight. They've headed off to bed and so has Ashley, Matt is talking to the cats while he sorts out their dinner. It's great that they have broadband too, the Grove has been so chatty that otherwise I'd have been millions of posts behind instead of completely up-to date!

It's the wedding tomorrow and it promises to be a busy day! We have to leave here quite early so to get back home to take Emily to Chelmsford in search of a replacement phone (as some gits stole hers at the Reading festival). She's going to get me some hair dye and cut my hair for me too!

Ohh, just seen the time, I need to do some sleeping!

Energy being sent to Bris family in Florida and to anyone else that Frances is heading for. xxx